First time ever semester finals in uni...
gonna get through it!
so there wont be any updates till the exam's over~ hehe
gonna have my first paper on this thurs morning(marketing)
All the best for all mkw1120 students
and all the best and luck for my dear friends who shares the same faith
>>>>exam>>>> =)
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Complicated to Simple
Things are not going the way i want them to be.
Am i now...
Upset?
Down?
Lost?
Frustrated?
Hatred?
Angry?
Disappointed?
Losing heat?
Heartless?
sad to say i hit quite a few on the list but at the same time
i'm glad to find out
i dont feel frustrated..erm maybe abit actually~
not hating anyone~
neither angry at anyone~
i have seen many wonder around the line of LOVE and HATRED.
which is sad...
always ask myself.
"Before split apart,loving each other so much and why must things END with frustration?with hatred?"
Loving a person to death this momment and hate the person to death the next.
creating such negative brain waves do no good to both parties...i believe.
Letting go is also an option如果得不到，放弃也是一种选择。(Quote from suat wei ^^).it's valid and bring less harm to both hearts.
can u imagine how tiring can it be to kill your precious brain cells and leaving your body with more cancer cells just because a person,an unpleasant occation,a sad momment?i personally think this is much more cruel and terrible punishment than physical ones.man! get some life and get over the past!
So...
We should live in the present with our past guiding us from behind,
and the future showing us the way to go!
And not living in the past and miss everything nice u have now and those waiting u ahead.
So will always remind myself to 看破，放下，自在。
See through things,Let go of them,Feel free~
=)
Am i now...
Upset?
Down?
Lost?
Frustrated?
Hatred?
Angry?
Disappointed?
Losing heat?
Heartless?
sad to say i hit quite a few on the list but at the same time
i'm glad to find out
i dont feel frustrated..erm maybe abit actually~
not hating anyone~
neither angry at anyone~
i have seen many wonder around the line of LOVE and HATRED.
which is sad...
always ask myself.
"Before split apart,loving each other so much and why must things END with frustration?with hatred?"
Loving a person to death this momment and hate the person to death the next.
creating such negative brain waves do no good to both parties...i believe.
Letting go is also an option如果得不到，放弃也是一种选择。(Quote from suat wei ^^).it's valid and bring less harm to both hearts.
can u imagine how tiring can it be to kill your precious brain cells and leaving your body with more cancer cells just because a person,an unpleasant occation,a sad momment?i personally think this is much more cruel and terrible punishment than physical ones.man! get some life and get over the past!
So...
We should live in the present with our past guiding us from behind,
and the future showing us the way to go!
And not living in the past and miss everything nice u have now and those waiting u ahead.
So will always remind myself to 看破，放下，自在。
See through things,Let go of them,Feel free~
=)
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Embrace Change??
CHANGE,something unfamiliar?Distant?
I wonder how differently it is defined in everyone's dictionary.
I always think that i'm more capable or better than others in handling change
but apparently i'm wrong all these while.
I always keep my hopes low.
I always expect least.
I always negative.
I always lack of confident in myself.
I always doubt my capability.
I always afraid that i will lose something i have now.
I always scare that i will be alone.
I always fear that nobody will love me.
I always try to convince myself by sayin" Jin! u can do it!"
I always afraid that i cant give what ppl around me expect me to be able to.
the list is way too long...probably will never ends.
Do u feel what i feel?
Do we feel the same or it's only me?
There're one million and one things in the world that's out of our control.
I cant be sure any would be under my control now or in the future.
But for sure one thing i know.
We all have 100% control over ourselves.
I cant change the way people do things, or i cant change what is happening around me.
I cant stop changes from occuring.
But i notice that i've an Ultimate weapon in countering Change!
i can change my way of interpreting and see things as how things change.things are always two sided,just like a coin!
So lets think about it...
well i know for now i cant have her.though how much i feel for her.
due to parents,strings,and everything..complicated matters.
but come to think of it.i should be happy!reason being
1.how many can never find someone they really love?but i'd found mine!
2.how many could ever find someone that speaks to their heart?i did!
3.how many people wished to be loved and to love someone in return?i'm one of them!
4.how many lucky guys could find a girl who is decent,nice,kind and lovely?i'm the lucky one
5.it's an opportunity for both of us to grow together,which many couple dont have the chance to.
6.we have sufficient time to test how true the feeling is.time can tell from a love and lust. And we have plenty.
7.i know in the end of the day. No matter what happens. We will still be frens! good friends! that's is a promise. And will be kept.=)
I dunno what will happen tmr,but i will treasure what i have now. before things change,before i lose the opportunity.so lets grab hold of our opportunity tight and dont regret k?
I wonder how differently it is defined in everyone's dictionary.
I always think that i'm more capable or better than others in handling change
but apparently i'm wrong all these while.
I always keep my hopes low.
I always expect least.
I always negative.
I always lack of confident in myself.
I always doubt my capability.
I always afraid that i will lose something i have now.
I always scare that i will be alone.
I always fear that nobody will love me.
I always try to convince myself by sayin" Jin! u can do it!"
I always afraid that i cant give what ppl around me expect me to be able to.
the list is way too long...probably will never ends.
Do u feel what i feel?
Do we feel the same or it's only me?
There're one million and one things in the world that's out of our control.
I cant be sure any would be under my control now or in the future.
But for sure one thing i know.
We all have 100% control over ourselves.
I cant change the way people do things, or i cant change what is happening around me.
I cant stop changes from occuring.
But i notice that i've an Ultimate weapon in countering Change!
i can change my way of interpreting and see things as how things change.things are always two sided,just like a coin!
So lets think about it...
well i know for now i cant have her.though how much i feel for her.
due to parents,strings,and everything..complicated matters.
but come to think of it.i should be happy!reason being
1.how many can never find someone they really love?but i'd found mine!
2.how many could ever find someone that speaks to their heart?i did!
3.how many people wished to be loved and to love someone in return?i'm one of them!
4.how many lucky guys could find a girl who is decent,nice,kind and lovely?i'm the lucky one
5.it's an opportunity for both of us to grow together,which many couple dont have the chance to.
6.we have sufficient time to test how true the feeling is.time can tell from a love and lust. And we have plenty.
7.i know in the end of the day. No matter what happens. We will still be frens! good friends! that's is a promise. And will be kept.=)
I dunno what will happen tmr,but i will treasure what i have now. before things change,before i lose the opportunity.so lets grab hold of our opportunity tight and dont regret k?
Sick!Terribly Sick> <
6-10-2009.Always show off by telling my friends how fit i'm.Till last tues, morning right before accounting lecture headache hits me hard following by fever in Audi1. When i touch Ian he claim that i'm even warmer than him but i'm like freezing like in north pole+headache(which make the lecture a very unpleasant one).Trying hard to complete my marketing presentation slides but nothing much can be done(due to the terrible headache) but thanks to Victor who helped out(i owe u another one Vic!)my slides are near to completion.Btw thanks for the panadol Heng Luen and Mel~
Thanks a million phei! for sending me back~made u drive all the way to monash>< still feel bad now for causing such trouble...
dad sent me to TDMC(taman desa medical center) at night and my temperature rise till 39.6 H1N1 negative, platelets count-190and got a jab at my butt(it hurts for more than 5 days man!wonder did i offend the nurse in a way or another!><).fever subsided after the fever injection, got some rest that night..
7-10-2009.Wed.The fever strikes back on wed evening and i couldnt sleep throughout the whole night even with the air-cond on..
8-10-2009Thurs.Dizzy the whole morning,went to a clinic and temperature rise to 39.4 appparently.Doctor gave me stronger medicine to surpress the fever.(the headache is killing!feels like exploding) Things get better after taking the medication.Doctor also suggest me to do Dengue test on the forth day of fever(tmr)
9-10-2009Fri.everything seems fine~no fever,little headache only.dint plan to go TDMC to do blood test. Things got worse in the evening. So went and did the blood test....guess what?platelets count drop to 46!!!(normal count is >150). Great! got emitted.sigh..=(
sry Phei! i lied to u that i'm ok that night,cuz i duwan to spoil yr birthday(sat).
10-10-2009Sat.Had a sleepless night.the patient next to me was mourning the whole night(he got stone in his kidney >< must be very painful la..)A nurse came over to take my blood for blood test at 6am.Had fried rice for breakfast(no appetite cuz doc told me i'm Dengue positive just b4 my breakfast!)
11-10-2009Sun.Again nurse came and took my blood at 6 am! >< dont like it..my platelets count fall to26~ sigh...suddenly miss uni and studying alot..
12-10-2009Mon-My platelets count rised from 26 to 29!!! i can leave TDMC atlast!!!!BUT!parents insist me to stay another night.sigh
13-10-2009Tues.Atlast!i'm out from TDMC in the morning..i feel so weak..cant do anything..well Monash!! here i come!!!!tommorow la...
I see alot of things in these few days when i'm terribly sick and while emitted in TDMC.
1.My parents actually care for me much more than i tot.Yea..though i get scolding all the time,but i can see they're really worried about me.I told a fren of mine when i'm emitted in TDMC.i'm probably one of the riches guy in the world!Cuz i've so many people who loves me and care for me in this world!!this is something money cant buy.
2.I've alot of friends who actually care for me.tho i dint tell them i
'm emitted unless they found out,cuz i duwan to make them worry about me..thx for visiting me while i'm emitted.i feel very warmth when i know u guys are there to support me when i need.Special thx to Shuu Phei, Chimp, Sheng Yeong and lyn!
3.There are people who suffers more than i do.especially after seeing the indian guy next to me mourned in pain the whole night.even though i've bone ache and feels uncomfortable,but i bet my pain is nothing compare to him.and i'm so lucky to be alive now!i've an uncle of mine die of dengue fever on the 5th day after knowing he was hit by dengue fever.
4.Treasure and learn to embrace what we have,before things change,before everything is too late...
Thanks a million phei! for sending me back~made u drive all the way to monash>< still feel bad now for causing such trouble...
dad sent me to TDMC(taman desa medical center) at night and my temperature rise till 39.6 H1N1 negative, platelets count-190and got a jab at my butt(it hurts for more than 5 days man!wonder did i offend the nurse in a way or another!><).fever subsided after the fever injection, got some rest that night..
7-10-2009.Wed.The fever strikes back on wed evening and i couldnt sleep throughout the whole night even with the air-cond on..
8-10-2009Thurs.Dizzy the whole morning,went to a clinic and temperature rise to 39.4 appparently.Doctor gave me stronger medicine to surpress the fever.(the headache is killing!feels like exploding) Things get better after taking the medication.Doctor also suggest me to do Dengue test on the forth day of fever(tmr)
9-10-2009Fri.everything seems fine~no fever,little headache only.dint plan to go TDMC to do blood test. Things got worse in the evening. So went and did the blood test....guess what?platelets count drop to 46!!!(normal count is >150). Great! got emitted.sigh..=(
sry Phei! i lied to u that i'm ok that night,cuz i duwan to spoil yr birthday(sat).
10-10-2009Sat.Had a sleepless night.the patient next to me was mourning the whole night(he got stone in his kidney >< must be very painful la..)A nurse came over to take my blood for blood test at 6am.Had fried rice for breakfast(no appetite cuz doc told me i'm Dengue positive just b4 my breakfast!)
11-10-2009Sun.Again nurse came and took my blood at 6 am! >< dont like it..my platelets count fall to26~ sigh...suddenly miss uni and studying alot..
12-10-2009Mon-My platelets count rised from 26 to 29!!! i can leave TDMC atlast!!!!BUT!parents insist me to stay another night.sigh
13-10-2009Tues.Atlast!i'm out from TDMC in the morning..i feel so weak..cant do anything..well Monash!! here i come!!!!tommorow la...
I see alot of things in these few days when i'm terribly sick and while emitted in TDMC.
1.My parents actually care for me much more than i tot.Yea..though i get scolding all the time,but i can see they're really worried about me.I told a fren of mine when i'm emitted in TDMC.i'm probably one of the riches guy in the world!Cuz i've so many people who loves me and care for me in this world!!this is something money cant buy.
2.I've alot of friends who actually care for me.tho i dint tell them i
'm emitted unless they found out,cuz i duwan to make them worry about me..thx for visiting me while i'm emitted.i feel very warmth when i know u guys are there to support me when i need.Special thx to Shuu Phei, Chimp, Sheng Yeong and lyn!
3.There are people who suffers more than i do.especially after seeing the indian guy next to me mourned in pain the whole night.even though i've bone ache and feels uncomfortable,but i bet my pain is nothing compare to him.and i'm so lucky to be alive now!i've an uncle of mine die of dengue fever on the 5th day after knowing he was hit by dengue fever.
4.Treasure and learn to embrace what we have,before things change,before everything is too late...
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